what else? where else? it has to start somewhere..with me, i know.

Pictures..

I am on leave..

having some time with myself..

taking it easy after a stressful week..

My health was at stake..and I badly need time to unwind.. to loosen up from the stress-causing life at work. I was thinking of having a new work chapter in some distant place..

Yes, I admit it..I’m bothered and I need to plan when to start lookin for a new career..

I feel so empty talking about work.. it doesn’t make sense anymore..I’m just waiting for the right timing.. and soon.. I’l pass this letter.. I’l surely miss my friends.. true friends I have at work and maybe, I’l be missing the moment when I hear someone’s cursing in front of the pc and I hear myself doing the same thing.. haha..sad but true.

And something caught my attention.. pictures.

My bestfriend’s pictures.

God, I remember high school. That was on our first year.. we weren’t close then, we’re block mates but we came from two different schools. Honestly, I didn’t think we’ll be best of friends. I had an overrated ego and so as she..plus the immaturities and tantrums we had.. ( I’m sure she’ll agree with this) But time passed and we became friends.. we were seatmates..we both enjoyed our Science class though we didn’t always share the same group.. and certified “malditey” was the word from my dear Sir John..of course referring to me.. and kept on pairing me to those who I really hated ( God..this makes me laugh now)..  and that continued..God, I didn’t know how I managed to deal with those..

2^nd year.. whew.. we weren’t supposed be together in a class but thanks to April (our batchmate)!! She agreed to swap with my dear ninia.. and voilah.. we again shared the same room and sched and teachers!! But after a few months.. actually..up to now.. I really didn’t know what was the reason for this.. we didn’t talk for months.. almost half of the class were not talking and we..both of us..started the trend.. imagine that?  But that moment strucked me.2^nd year was not really a happy moment for me.. That was the time I thought I couldn’t battle.. mid September when my father passed away.. ( and I don’t want to reiterate on it.. . I know he’s still there for me).. and this topic makes me cry..so.. back to school..yeah.. we weren’t talking but after a few months.. I realized.. or maybe we realized how stupid we were.. it was really hard though I was trying to show..was ok.. tryin to show though I was not affected.. and thanks to our friends who were there.. always there to meet us halfway.. and February came.. was a busy month since it was our foundation day.. of course I was missing my best friend during dance rehearsals.. and one day.. I didn’t know what went to our head and we hugged.. (of course..with the undying effort of our friends to patch things up between the two of us.. ).. we cried and we were sorry..and so the story continued.

Third year.. still ..we’re best of friends.. we had a group.. Spices? Yeah… I remember.. hahaha..this is so funny.. Spice girls moment.. and we shared secrets.. shared homeworks as well..and everytime our Economics teacher asked us to recite.. well you know what to do.. if the SOS thingy signaled on either the two of us… or anyone in the group.  God…we were really funny.. immature.. so high school..and I’m missing those moments.

And lastly.. graduating class of 2000.. it’s a long story how we dealt with it.. those moments..the truth will always be in our hearts..  those times when I didn’t know who to trust.. when I decided not to join the JS prom nor the graduation.. when I felt the betrayal and unfairness of some people (but hell yeah…was over and it’s their conscience and guilt after all).. it was ninia who comforted me. I was really happy for what she achieved.. J honestly ..but the pain of betrayal and hatred was so strong that I decided not to share the gift of graduation.. and God I’m missing my bestfriend while I’m writing this.. and we know..we’ll see each other soon J 

And so now..  I’m humming this song..

Ain’t it good to know that you’ve got a friend

When people can be so cold

They’ll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don’t you let them
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I’ll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I’ll be there
You’ve got a friend

.. I’m missing you bess..and sooner..we’ll see each other..definitely. J

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