7
August
2005

dilemma0

i dunno wat to feel at this very moment..

scared? 
confused?
betrayed?
hurt?

all of those mixed emotions came from the uncertainties i feel abt you..
i know..a lot has changed. I’m part of it.
You may not say it..but i know..
it’s not paranoia..but i know something has changed.
Definitely ..

What makes me grip to this dilemma..
is a promise that..
YOU wont fail me and i trust you.

Next to commitment is a great responsibility we shouldn’t miss.
But i still trust you.

You know what to do. i’m just here to listen.

I miss you.

You know me..I’m complicated.
But one thing sure about me is transparency and loyalty.

Admiration is ego boosting,that’s a fact.
Yet love is anything beyond our understanding..
it’s a deep feeling only the heart can explain.

Sincere,honest and real.
These qualities can define what I feel.
And you know..you always do..
That ul just have to say those words..
and i wud understand.

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3
August
2005

..petix0

Listening to Kitchie Nadal’s Same Ground at 3 a.m while havin a cup of cappucino reminds me of the arguments we had..

Is it really paranoia? Or that addiction? Or jst having some kind of frustration? Plus the pressure at home?

At this late..still thoughts of you lay me to that nostalgic feeling..despite being drawn myself to cups of coffee..cappucino or even tea.

Opportunities rush on me..yet everything’s empty. 

Smiles I made reminisce the happy days we  had..despite my ever-fave line "we always don’t meet halfway.." and a sigh..or a walk out..

and i found out…

…  hey..im just dreamin. ;-)

… i haven’t found you.

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